When I need guidance, I write to the Universe. My perception is that I am both connecting with my higher self and something mysterious and unexplainable simultaneously.
As my divorce finalizes (I’ll share more on this in the coming months. Please – no condolence emails J. It’s good for both of us – and we’re still doing biz together!), I am preparing to move to my soul’s home – Los Angeles, California. In the midst of my packing, I found some old journals.
Today, I want to share an entry with you that explores some of my thoughts about the mind and belief as well as the necessity for knowing what you think and believe fully in order to live your Life Purpose with intention and joy. Come with me and discover the ultimate secret of your mind.
Journal Entry: 29 September 2004
Baeth: Universe, what was my scariest prayer?
Universe: The day after your wish for death, the day you got down on your knees and prayed: “God/Universe/Whatever/Whomever, if you show me my Life’s Purpose, I will forever be your humble servant,” you made the ultimate prayer and traded in your nihilistic attitude of a meaningless Universe for a mind set of meaning and fulfillment.
You knew there was no turning back.
You knew there would be pain, loss, betrayal and lots of eating crow.
But you also knew that this ride, though fraught with terror, was a far better alternative than the previous pain you’d endured – the pain of self-judgment, self-denial, self-betrayal and self-inflicted martyrdom. You DECIDED – catch that? – you decided that you could believe anything you wanted – so why not believe in your highest good and the highest good for all the planet and her inhabitants great and small?
Why not believe that you are not your past, your ancestry, your DNA, your gender, your failures, your successes, your dreams, wishes, hopes and fears but instead that you are an instrument of divine grace put here on Earth to remind everyone who would dare open their hearts that they, too, are instruments of divine grace, a paint stroke off the Universe’s infinite brush, a rush of color and vitality, unique and timeless, a part of the grand scheme, singular in all history?
Why not?
Why not indeed.
So, dearest, you discovered the ultimate secret of your mind – if you can believe whatever you want to believe, all belief is at once meaningless and crucial. This is an example of paradox and duality.
Beliefs are what people live, fight and die for. Occasionally, they fight for water or territory or meat, but mostly, the human battles on the ground are graphic out-picturings of the “right/wrong” debates in their heads.
As long as you are right, and I am wrong, we are at war. However, if you follow any line of argument to its end, you will arrive at the opposite point of view.
For example, you say, “Take guns off the streets. No one should have a gun but regulated officials.” So laws are passed and guns are taken off the streets; now only ‘officials’ can have them.
One day, the officials decide they don’t like how certain citizens are behaving – maybe these citizens are protesting outside the state house or writing angry letters to the editor about how they now have no means to protect themselves against their government instituting martial law. These naughty citizens are arrested at gunpoint and held without due process.
Eventually, this injustice reaches critical mass and people join together to overthrow the government – though many are shot dead in the process since they have to fight the government’s guns with sticks and stones, bows and arrows, clubs and knives.
A new government is eventually organized, granting citizens the right to bear arms so that they can ‘never’ again be dominated by an unfriendly government that does not have their best interests at heart.
And round and round it goes. Once you realize that any absolutist stance immediately includes its opposite, you are on the road to spiritual freedom. The ability to live in all possibilities allows you to see that nothing is black or white. Even the night sky has stars of light and a reflective moon; the day casts shadows as the Earth revolves around the sun. Light and shadow work together.
A capacity to hold paradox allows you to perceive the gray and embrace your own contradictions, thus developing a rare quality, a very rare quality indeed – the ability to laugh at yourself and accept who you are. When you truly love and accept yourself, the world is your playground and your teacher, your lover and your friend.
You are safe anywhere, able to chat with pauper and prince, to dance like no one is watching and to snort loudly while watching Bugs Bunny re-runs.
What trips most folks up is thinking that their opinion, as fragile as a paper bag in the wind, is who they are. An opinion is an opinion – and opinions are necessary for developing a strong, healthy personality. But opinions are not mantras to live by.
A mantra, such as, “I do my conscious best, regardless of the expectations of others,” is a spiritual intention designed to support an individual on her life journey. “I hate coffee,” is an opinion that might change the minute she lands in Italy.
Go forth dear child, and find your spiritual roots but be careful in living and dying for ‘beliefs’ that are really just opinions or hand me downs from others. Honor the place beyond right and wrong and you will come home not only to your own purpose, but understand your purpose in relation to the evolution of humanity’s collective purpose.
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