“Let It Go”

My Life Purpose, from my fingerprints (aka my “spiritual blueprint”), is “Successful Businesswoman and Spiritual Teacher with a Special Message for a Large Audience – With Heart.”

My core message is this: “You have a unique purpose on this planet. It’s ‘your purpose – in your hands.’ Only YOU have the power to unleash this inner potency and make it manifest in the world. Doing so is the greatest thing you could ever do.”

And while my message compels me, impels me passionately forward, there is a constant winnowing process occurring where I must let go of outmoded ways of being to embrace a new way of being. If I resist this process of letting go, the lessons come faster – and harder.

Ironically, the hardest lesson this year has been letting go.

Here’s a light-hearted example. Recently, I received the infamous “Facebook spank” and my account was disabled. I think it was because I had an increase in friend requests going out from my account. I had exported my personal mailing list and was requesting folks who weren’t already  ‘friends.’ I think the powers that be suspected my account was hacked (it wasn’t).

I may or may not get my account reinstated, but silly me – Facebook is free! I should have – if I’d been smart – backed up my friends’ list AND all the content I posted on there. Did I? No, I didn’t. I don’t own my Facebook info (and you don’t own yours either) – Facebook does. They can do whatever they want with your posted info. Not the greatest customer service policy if you ask me, but they haven’t responded yet. There is no one to talk to or call at their headquarters. Email after email request has gone unanswered. So what can I do?

“Let it go.” What will be, will be. (Put out some good energy for me, okay? I like communicating with y’all on there! And there’s always Twitter!)

The same goes for interpersonal relationships.

I went out with some friends last Friday night. We had such a good time, we decided to go out again Saturday night. Unfortunately, expectations being what they are, Saturday night was a pale reflection of Friday night. Late night pancakes lightened the mood slightly, but I was astounded at how irritated I was that the evening had not unfolded in an order to my liking.

This may not seem like much, but for me, it was a spiritual comeuppance. Broken “expectations” are usually a sign that I’m holding on way too tight to a particular mood, feeling, outcome or ambition.

These two experiences – a Facebook disappearance and a disappointing evening – seemed to be trying to tell me something. Um, maybe it’s time to “let it go.”

And let go of what else? On the physical level, I cut off four inches of my hair (right before my karaoke adventure!) and died it dark espresso with gold streaks. Ditched a lot of weight around my middle thanks to my encouraging and merciless physical trainer, Zach. Let go of tons of clothes that I no longer wear, gave our king-size custom-made futon bed to our daughter and ordered a custom-made Westin Heavenly Bed (the most comfortable bed I’ve ever slept on!). Replacing our carpet with hardwood flooring, replacing old vanities with new ones (hopefully, just the ones in our bathrooms!), and finally furnishing our barren living room.

On the internal level, I’ve embraced my Life’s Purpose more deeply. That means that the tasks I undertake on a daily level aim to express my truth and my heart. Everything I do needs to express my highest self to the best of my ability. I have released anxiety and replaced it with the quest for excellence. Doing things well, in my own way, on my own schedule is just fine. I’ve let go of being ‘good’ and accepting ‘good enough.’ I’ve let go of thinking ‘I know’ what’s going to happen. I have a vision but how that vision unfolds is part of the mystery and the joy of living.

Most of all, when the day ends, it’s time to just wrap it up and let it go. Off to slumber land, surrendered, relaxed and ready for the next adventure!

Are you surrendered to your Life’s Purpose? If not now, when? To YOUR Purpose – it’s in YOUR hands!